I didn't get to go Because I told myself no, So I didn't get to see you, Sit with your silence, Melt my nervous system, And share unspoken words: Our knees barely touching, Just bare forearms, Occasionally brushing knuckles Or bumping elbows. But always included, Always joining in, Always answering my fears Before they had slipped my mouth. And always, always Laughing at my jokes. But I didn't go. So I didn't say hello, Or feel your warm embrace Or the only kiss I will allow When we say goodbye.